Darling,
ever be the lover that you long for,
doing as you would the other do.
each day each second i still love you,
seeding what that makes one - out of two.
such love of being is the canopy,
under which all things above all shall wedded be.
The sacrifice of time and strength,
of preference and good of deeds,
and of help, but love? may calm
the winds and storm that roil the restless sea.
Everything one does, like dust,
transforms be the light in which we all live.
But happiness, my Dear, is not a gift,
It is within one's power to give.
One can only love, and be
A witness to the life that each,
at last must live alone, for
Well or ill beyond a Lover's reach.
Diena, i hope there still is the light,
in which u brought in not faded but gone.
I still do pray for us.
Cos i still do fucking Love you.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
|| khai o khai ||
eilsaKhai
missing the routines
missing my beau
missing myself
i need to find myself back
was told
"i cried alot these few days"
i noe i was
and i noe wat it caused
werk
shit werk
skool
i hate skool
pls...
baby..
i need u to console me
be close to me
i need to be alive
i need to find me
i need to be wat i was
i have to
or
i will be left alone
in my own shadows
running away from them
bcos i noe
im not well now
i need to find myself
for now..
dun let me be
pls baby...
i need u
to be with me.....
im not being truthful
need the courage
pls
F*CK!!!!
___khAi
i love you Diena...
breathing still...@ 10:15 PM
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Monday, August 14, 2006
|| "u oso" ||
:__saKhai
I made up my mind
bcos of something which i did
and at that i was unkind
to my mum who loved me dearly
and prayed that i'll nvr repeat it
to whom i promised
never to repeat
and i asked her to promise
that she too
join me
"nvr do it again"
- "u oso"
......................
oppressed by a feeling
to feel distrust
but i noe it wasnt meant
so i let it be
and my promise i vowed
with thee
...................
a reason came
to break that promise not by me
that reason came
but i cant accept it
so it hurt
but i terribly deny
i thought
maybe
thy thinking wasnt well
thy went on
and broke a shell
i thought of it
which i can tell
thy thinking wasnt well
wasnt well enough
a calling made
i was taught a lesson
i learned and i listened
but the teacher didnt
then this calling again
for the lesson to learn
i observed
and my teacher learned
the lesson
thy thinking wasnt well
but i knew it
i could tell
and again..
i learned
and she learned
this was a lesson
pls....
I Love You..
breathing still...@ 4:55 PM
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006
|| a smell.. ||
:__saKhai--
with that weak Diorama
those crowds..
People like you..
I feel
some you live in that dream world
You despise the outside
vainly
"with" power?
--and you fear you're the next one
It's in your dream
soon
that one question
"Wooo.That guy's head was like a ball.
-----Damn..Scary..What if it was my head?"
now..
-->the weak not be weak
--> should we kill?
--> or should we leave them fear their own shadows?