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Eilsakhai 'khAi' DruMetal
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Combat Medic
Percussionist - Drummer
recuperating heartbreak
relish.
smile and beguile
growing old with her
Lamborghini Reventon
.dilemma.
Diena
Wishlist
SAF: serve and fuck off
modelling career
PI
Subaru Impreza WRX STI 2.5
drumset
whole new wardrobe
shirts
shirts: Raoul
pants, jeans, trousers, bermudas, shorts
wallet
shoes
sandals
watch
watch: TagHeuer - Microtimer
belts
belts: tough
eyewear
eyewear: Oakley - Romeo 2.0
ignorance is failure.
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why i cry
Darling,
ever be the lover that you long for,
doing as you would the other do.
each day each second i still love you,
seeding what that makes one - out of two.
such love of being is the canopy,
under which all things above all shall wedded be.
The sacrifice of time and strength,
of preference and good of deeds,
and of help, but love? may calm
the winds and storm that roil the restless sea.
Everything one does, like dust,
transforms be the light in which we all live.
But happiness, my Dear, is not a gift,
It is within one's power to give.
One can only love, and be
A witness to the life that each,
at last must live alone, for
Well or ill beyond a
Diena, i hope there still is the light, in which u brought in not faded but gone. I still do pray for us. Cos i still do fucking Love you.
|| ohh Diena.. ||
diena...
My love, Diena..
You're gone. And i cant believe it.
It seemed too easy for u to let me go.
And i dont understand tat.
It takes me far, far to think of what i actually mean to u.
And for u to let me go jus like tat, it seemed 'us' before,
was like nothing.
Is your heart really tat pure?
Do you really believe wat it is -- To Love.. ? Do you?
it was like hell..
i cant take u off my mind.
even tho we agreed to be frens,
u insisted on being cold towards me.
even then.
i told u..
to look deep down inside,
to feel wat u really wanna feel,
but u cant.
moreover,
the presence of another guy who's making u feel good,
and ur resistance to understand me,
it all puts to whether u actually really love me.
or maybe i jus dun understand..
i know u dun wanna force it.
but u must realise tat hatred feeling u have on me.
u cant even take it if it means to look into ur heart,
just for a moment!
i dun wanna say this yet, but i must.
i still love you. even if trust is not much there.
but i wanna do it again.
i want 'us'.. like before..
don't u want it? do u even feel like i actually existed in u?
atau u memang senang nk tukar perasaan?
hati yg tak setia...??
yea.. i've been bad..
but havent u?
it's all wrong.. but i wanna make it right..
dun tell me im selfish,
cos u may be too..
u refuse me too..
u came upon another feeling,
from which it comes from another person,
and u refuse me..
pure? or is it not?
i dun understand..
whatever i am to u..
i wanna know..
if 'us' actually existed..
if tat relationship actually proved us how much each of us mean to each other.
i cant forget u.
cos ur my memory..
and maybe tat u dont understand.
maybe u'll realise and u come back..
or maybe ur jus me..
selfish and hard-hearted..
Diena.
I Loved You.
breathing still... @ 2:51 PM
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