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Eilsakhai 'khAi' DruMetal
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Combat Medic
Percussionist - Drummer
recuperating heartbreak
relish.
smile and beguile
growing old with her
Lamborghini Reventon
.dilemma.
Diena
Wishlist
SAF: serve and fuck off
modelling career
PI
Subaru Impreza WRX STI 2.5
drumset
whole new wardrobe
shirts
shirts: Raoul
pants, jeans, trousers, bermudas, shorts
wallet
shoes
sandals
watch
watch: TagHeuer - Microtimer
belts
belts: tough
eyewear
eyewear: Oakley - Romeo 2.0
ignorance is failure.
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why i cry
Darling,
ever be the lover that you long for,
doing as you would the other do.
each day each second i still love you,
seeding what that makes one - out of two.
such love of being is the canopy,
under which all things above all shall wedded be.
The sacrifice of time and strength,
of preference and good of deeds,
and of help, but love? may calm
the winds and storm that roil the restless sea.
Everything one does, like dust,
transforms be the light in which we all live.
But happiness, my Dear, is not a gift,
It is within one's power to give.
One can only love, and be
A witness to the life that each,
at last must live alone, for
Well or ill beyond a
Diena, i hope there still is the light, in which u brought in not faded but gone. I still do pray for us. Cos i still do fucking Love you.
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ps. darling khai, i miss you dearly.
ps. darling khai, i miss you dearly.
how just small arguments bring us apart.
just how powerful pain can be to tear our bond further.
just how weak ur love is now just because of this - the old issue.
i'm waiting for ur call, baby.
waiting for the verdict.
i'm waiting for ur answer, khai.
if i can see - the love - if you're gonna give.
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*chucks*
again.. yeah.. i do miss her. but.....
i... jus cant believe this shit actually happen to me.
i cant cry tho. but the willingness to triage the heartbreak is crippling.
so hard to stand up whenever this THOUGHT comes to mind.
why it came i dun fucking understand why.
jus so hard to accept "to let go".
because i poured into you.
those words above, they tell me u do dire the affection.
sighs.
and im shaking my head so hard,
thinking:
" why sia? "
lol.. this thing acts like a pop-up window in my head.
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*chucks*
again.. yeah.. i do miss her. but.....
i... jus cant believe this shit actually happen to me.
i cant cry tho. but the willingness to triage the heartbreak is crippling.
so hard to stand up whenever this THOUGHT comes to mind.
why it came i dun fucking understand why.
jus so hard to accept "to let go".
because i poured into you.
those words above, they tell me u do dire the affection.
sighs.
and im shaking my head so hard,
thinking:
" why sia? "
lol.. this thing acts like a pop-up window in my head.
breathing still... @ 5:59 PM
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